You know, I really try to take a devil may care attitude towards this space. Usually, I don't look at stats, links or the ever present or non present comment ratio. because I am no big deal... wait a minute. I'm totally a big deal to spammers. They are blowing up my comments section with their antics.
THEN.... three times a year I look at what is really going on.....how people are brought to this site because it isn't due to content.
from links.... from stats.... from chat... from minutia... just from today......
couple who met from russian roulette game show
(Wouldn't that be cool if you met your mate by playing Russian Roulette? Though I do wonder if the searchers meant the gaming table style or by using an actual gun. Those who are able to withstand the anticipation of the gun game, totally deserve to be together in an highly dysfunctional relationship.)
gorillabuns medical examiner
(yea, this search doesn't make me want to hurl twenty times over...and can I say FUCK YOU if you are looking for a smoking gun here?)
grand jury summons
(umm.... yes, I FINALLY got out of this tour of duty because I don't fucking work. Something my husband tells me every day. Thankfully, the powers that be realized this as well. Now, if I could find some self-worth out of this reality, life would be grand. Because, say it with me - I don't work.)
going on after a child has died
(Go me! I'm the queen of death and dying of a child. Well, not really. I'm no fucking expert. I so wish I didn't have a clue. Because I don't.)
I really haven't had anything to say as of late. Well, I'm never a loss for words but haven't felt like writing anything of importance here because well, what is the point? I'm quite bored with myself.
Really I think I'm losing my mind slowly but surely.
SERIOUSLY!! Because I've been listening to Katy Perry and watching this video non-stop. Doing this repeatedly surely means I've lost my mind, right?
How about a totally segue with no meaning?
Coming right up!
Did ya'll catch the Emmys the other evening? How about that "Holla!" Claire Daines? I shared how much I don't like her because, I don't. I don't think she acts very well and let's be frank. I totally have it in for her as she stole another woman's man while she was something like seven months pregnant! The only time I liked Claire or Jared Leto was during My So-Called Life.
Man, this video summed up my high school days. or early college days. Face it, we all could relate to the Claire then versus the Claire now.
Talk about feeling awkward and unsure of myself these days, I have lost 13lbs and I went and got my hair cut specifically I got bangs.
I don't know why I get bangs. Everytime I think to myself, "this is the time I'll finally get it right and maintain them for the good." In truth, I can't style them and since it is always about 90% humidity around here these days, they shrink and curl up like a bad 90's reject style.
BUT! I'm trying to change myself. For the better. Even if it's slow and steady with not a lot of overt results outwardly showing. I have to keep cheering myslef along that I might finally get it right someday.